I want to be a writer

Really I do.  I want to be cleaver and witty.  I want to write stuff that people will want to read.  So I tried to make myself a writer.  I started blogging daily when I was out of school and out of work, I wanted to create discipline in my life.  I would write 500 words every other day.  And I hoped that writing funny, personal little things would convince me that I could write long and scary things… like dissertations.  It didn’t work.  Writing still seems like a chore.  I was sitting here at work with literally nothing to do for hours before I said to myself, I guess I’ll go write something. 

For me, writing is laborious. I have little to say and I always feel like I’m saying it badly.  And today I am even less inspired to go back to school and all the writing that entails.  And I have thought about writing a theatrical adaptation of Thomas Hardy’s “Under the Greenwood Tree” for like 3 years, just as something interesting to try.  Well guess what just opened in London? (not that I was going to get a London opening… it’s just the principle.)

I did one of my lectures in my Teaching seminar on emotions and I did an activity to illustrate that making yourself smile actually make you feel happier.  And CS Lewis says that doing good things will make you into a better person.  Dr. Wagner (my major professor) said “it’s not that you are a bad writer, you just need to work at it more.”

I’m working on it… less now that I had been.  But it’s the kind of person that I want to be. So please bear with me while I try.  I have a feeling I won’t ever be Steinbeck, but I just want to be Erin.  Whether that includes dissertations, 500 words or 200.

And I believe that actions can change your attitudes… eventually.

More is on the way.

What I like about Ryan

• First, you know… what’s not to like.  I remember when I was watching the exhibition after the 2007 Nationals when he got silver.  I happened to be at home in Gulf Breeze when my sister and her friend came in.  I was gushing about how he had come from behind.  There he was and they were as won over as me.
  

  The incomparable Ryan Bradley

• He skated to Baroque chamber music and wore a period costume complete with puffy shirt… and it was funny.
• He’s the king of the quad, landing two to beat both Lysacek and Weir in the Free Skate.
• His crazy hair.
• He is such a performer.  It’s always a piece of theater… no one can win a crowd like Ryan… except maybe Philippe Candeloro.
• He’s 3 time collegiate champion.  The rest of them don’t bother with the school thing.
• He’s dangerous… only needed a few more points that he lost in the short program to get on the Olympic team.  After the excellent Free… I was so torn about cheering for Johnny Weir.  Can’t we have four spots?
• All that’s next… alternate on the Olympic team, exhibitions, pro shows, tours.  Can’t wait.

Yummy Dessert

I indulged in my pumpkin themed Christmas presents today and made pumpkin muffins. How precious.

Here’s my recipe…  Trader Joe’s Pancake Mix Pumpkin Muffins.

Only 106 calories per muffin. Thanks Molly.