January 31, 2010
Really I do. I want to be cleaver and witty. I want to write stuff that people will want to read. So I tried to make myself a writer. I started blogging daily when I was out of school and out of work, I wanted to create discipline in my life. I would write 500 words every other day. And I hoped that writing funny, personal little things would convince me that I could write long and scary things… like dissertations. It didn’t work. Writing still seems like a chore. I was sitting here at work with literally nothing to do for hours before I said to myself, I guess I’ll go write something.
For me, writing is laborious. I have little to say and I always feel like I’m saying it badly. And today I am even less inspired to go back to school and all the writing that entails. And I have thought about writing a theatrical adaptation of Thomas Hardy’s “Under the Greenwood Tree” for like 3 years, just as something interesting to try. Well guess what just opened in London? (not that I was going to get a London opening… it’s just the principle.)
I did one of my lectures in my Teaching seminar on emotions and I did an activity to illustrate that making yourself smile actually make you feel happier. And CS Lewis says that doing good things will make you into a better person. Dr. Wagner (my major professor) said “it’s not that you are a bad writer, you just need to work at it more.”
I’m working on it… less now that I had been. But it’s the kind of person that I want to be. So please bear with me while I try. I have a feeling I won’t ever be Steinbeck, but I just want to be Erin. Whether that includes dissertations, 500 words or 200.
And I believe that actions can change your attitudes… eventually.
More is on the way.
January 17, 2010
- First, you know… what’s not to like. I remember when I was watching the exhibition after the 2007 Nationals when he got silver. I happened to be at home in Gulf Breeze when my sister and her friend came in. I was gushing about how he had come from behind. There he was and they were as won over as me.
- He skated to Baroque chamber music and wore a period costume complete with puffy shirt… and it was funny.
- He’s the king of the quad, landing two to beat both Lysacek and Weir in the Free Skate.
- His crazy hair.
- He is such a performer. It’s always a piece of theater… no one can win a crowd like Ryan… except maybe Philippe Candeloro.
- He’s 3 time collegiate champion. The rest of them don’t bother with the school thing.
- He’s dangerous… only needed a few more points that he lost in the short program to get on the Olympic team. After the excellent Free… I was so torn about cheering for Johnny Weir. Can’t we have four spots?
- All that’s next… alternate on the Olympic team, exhibitions, pro shows, tours. Can’t wait.