The last Olympic post (at least for this year)
September 20, 2008
I promised one more so here it is; I’ve been stewing on it for a while now.
You know how during the coverage they’d cut away to do special interest pieces sometimes about the biography of the athletes sometimes about Beijing? Well one that I saw was an piece about the reason the athletes do what they do. They interviewed all sorts of people and to a man they all said they do it for themselves. That it’s not for the country or the glory or their parents or anything else. They spend so much time and effort on training and competing and sacrificing only because they want to.
A couple of things that struck me… First their level of achievement was separate from the accolades that they stood to achieve. And second they were not trying to prove anything.
So I was trying to come up with the things in my life that I approach with this attitude and the things that I don’t. What have I really worked on to get better at? Two things I think psychology and theatre. Both things I really love. One that I had to work on but mostly comes naturally and one that I still have to work really hard at to make even the barest improvement.
But the issue is that I have approached my psychology career and well most of my academic career with let’s say that anti-Olympic attitude. I spent all my time trying to prove myself, to my family, to my teachers, to people that I just met. Prove that I’m smart and special and worthy. And it was always about accolades and achievements; what’s the next thing you can get? When I say it, it makes sense why I’d be dissatisfied right?
So I guess what I need to do is decide if I can or I want to change my attitude about it. To do it just for me. I still don’t know.